“This act of naming grace moments, this list of God’s gifts, moves beyond the shopping list variety of prayer and into the other side. The other side of prayer, the interior of His throne room, the inner walls of His powerful, love-beating heart. The list is God’s list, the pulse of His love – the love that thrums on the other side of our prayers. And I see it now for what it really is, this dare to write down one thousand things I love. It really is a dare to name all the ways that God loves me. The true Love Dare. To move into His presence and listen to His love unending and know the grace uncontainable. This is the vault of miracles. The only thing that can change us, the world, is this – all His love.”
Lately, a dear friend has suffered a great loss, and this has brought back all the memories and the sorrow of our great loss. Having spent the past several days in what feels like a dark hole, I’m continuing to plow through 1,000 Gifts and trying to remember all that I’ve learned and gained in the past two years. When I first read in Voskamp’s book that a joyful life begins in thanksgiving, I started, in the midst of my wretched, to think of things for which I am thankful, even the small things.
So, though I think I will never make it to 1,000, I’m going to start keeping track. Because if all these little things that I can give thanks for are ways that God tells me that He loves me, I want that love now. I need that love now.
1. Hydrangeas from my dad in an antique pitcher.
2. Impromptu picnics under the party tree with friends.
3. Dark gray rain clouds slicing through a perfect pink sunset.
4. A cool bed in the evening after a hot day.
5. A basketfull of colorful yarn.
6. Watching Levi watch Veggie Tales for the first time.
7. Two names on my necklace.
That’s what I’ve got for now. I’m attempting to write them down and/or photograph things as I see them, so hopefully I’ll have more soon.